I walked up to the apartment entrance at Whole Foods … listening to gossip about her job. We walked in the door … like I had done many times … but I knew it was different this time. Instead of walking upstairs to watch One Tree Hill or to hang out and make some random craft or to sit and drink wine, I was instead hugging her goodbye for an indefinite amount of time. But rather than think that I didn’t know when I would be seeing her again, I pretended like it was any other time … a quick goodbye, “I’ll talk to you later this week” … and I turned and walked out the door.
Because it was easier. It is always easier to walk out like nothing would be changing, even though I knew that things were. You see, my first “work” friend out of college is moving back to the east coast today. After 5 years of having her blocks away … with almost two of those years working next to each other in our first “adult jobs” in cubes 3 feet away … we will now be hundreds of miles apart.
It’s funny how time changes things. Just when everything seems to be … well .. just be … time changes it all. And it makes you realize that things don’t say the same … no matter how much you might want them. It is a reminder to live in the moment because every moment is passing … and you don’t get to go back. Don’t get me wrong, I’m beyond thrilled for my dear friend, Jennifer, as she moves back to NYC to marry her college sweetheart and start their lives together (you have seen these two on the blog a few months ago for their engagement session). But there is a little part of me … that wishes things didn’t have to change.
So as I walked away from Whole Foods saying a different goodbye than I was used to, I found comfort knowing that while things were changing … that our goodbye hug was really an “I’ll see you soon”.
“Don’t be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends.” – Richard Bach
Have a great weekend, babes.