I walked into the apartment after my consulation last night and nothing had changed. The million throw pillows were still perfectly placed on the couch. The pineapple I cut the night before was still being chilled in the refrigerator waiting to be eaten. The TV was still tuned to Bravo. Everything in its place, but I wanted it all to be different.

As some of you know, my boyfriend, Phil, has been in South East Asia since January. I last saw him 86 days ago when I left Thailand after a whirlwind of a trip visiting Vietnam (Ho Chi Minh, Hoi An, Nha Trang)¬†and Cambodia. And while we have done the long distance thing more than once over the last 10 years together, this time feels the longest … the hardest …. and the strangest.

We are over 8,000 miles apart. Living in two different days (literally) in two different worlds. I am so blessed to be extremely busy in Chicago with work, dates with friends and dinners with family, but even with everything else in my life being so “full” it feels a little empty with Phil not here.

Our not so successful attempts at video chatting and phone calls seem to be more about “can you hear me” …or … “what, you are cutting out” than actual conversations. And while g chat and whatsapp have made me feel a little closer so I can tell him about my day or send a funny picture to him, we are still so far apart. Long distance sucks. Seriously. To all my couples out there who do this for months / years … you are SO strong. There are days when I wake up, and I miss him so much it hurts … that I think about jumping on a plane for a 17-hour flight just to see him for a few days in between my work schedule. The next 25 days seem as if they are forever away. :( I am ready to come home to the throw pillows on the floor, an empty bowl of pineapple and ESPN on the TV …. so that I can be right by his side again.



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